don't-know-what-to-put-so-anyhow-type-words-in-title-box post

i've been so dead when it comes to blogging this year. it used to be so much fun and i always finding myself writing entries even when i'm tired. i have no idea where all that energy went. maybe into my new hobby... makeup! (:

but anyway, i do feel like i want to start up my blog again. (although i don't think i will bother to change the layout and all just yet) i miss penning down my thoughts and going around with my camera snapping things i want to blog about. i realised i've missed out on alot of 'me' time lately. well, more like even since i came back to singapore. which partially explains why i haven't been blogging. it's definitely good to be back home but the pace of life here is really crazy fast! about 1-2 months ago, i started missing australia. i miss it so much that i seriously thought i could stay there forever. yea.. not very realistic i know. then hopefully i can at least get another 2 years there.. *fingers crossed*

here's a new favourite song of mine to kickstart this new entry...

Thieves by She & Him

zooey deschanel is my new idol.. ok, not exactly. but i really envy her (because her husband is DCFC's frontman). and who don't like pretty girls.. c'mon.

it's time to disco

on a topic completely unrelated to my post title.. i am not in a very good state right now. i'm coming to the end of my 3rd year of bachelor and now i need to decide my next step in life (erm.. so to speak). this did not just occur to me days ago.. in fact, it's been on my mind since the start of this year. i've spoken to many people.. and even done the 'listing the pros/cons of each option' thingy but i still can't decide. honours or master of physiotherapy? well, for a brief period, i was quite settled with pursuing physiotherapy. i mean, c'mon.. in demand and pays well.. good prospects for the future mah. then today we had a talk in school for third year students like myself. and then i started opening up my options again.. i guess because physio wasn't what i intended to do when i took up this degree. i wanted to be involved in strength & conditioning and sport-performance related work. sadly, reality is that singapore doesn't have the well-developed market for sports scientists. at least not yet. after today's talk, i've re-opened the possibility of doing honours. why? because a part of me doesn't want to step into physio just yet. think about it.. if i did my masters in physio.. that's pretty much what i'll be doing for the next two decades or so, and doing honours will still enable me to eventually become a S&C coach/sports trainer.. maybe even a lecturer?
i need to sleep on all of that.. and pray about it as well. this was like back then after O's.. but tougher decisions. last time, when i didn't know what i wanted to do.. just go JC lor. now not so fun anymore.. sigh, the stresses of life. speaking of JC.. here's a short clip of a dance from a bollywood play put up by the arts society. it was a tremendous hit and apparently the junior batches adapted the moves and created the 'fun dance' for subsequent orientations. JC may not have been the smartest choice i made.. but it was definitely worth it.
no PJ = no hockey = no sports science degree = no present me. well, it's time to disco baby. enjoy (:

sometimes i think i'm too nice

insolent, impudent, completely impossible! how is one suppose to take that lying down? i don't reckon i will. the glass is half full, not such an easy notion to fathom. we all consciously know it's better to think that way, but in reality our subconscious mind will reveal that the glass is indeed half empty. my point...? it's not always easy to look at the good/positive/incentive when the bad/negative/drawback is staring you in the face in a form of some kind.

it's the start of study break. i'm relieved and anxious at the same time. please let me pull through this.. i really need to! it doesn't help when idiots don't bother to do chores with the excuse it's exam period. why don't they stop breathing as well?! well... what can i say, they are idiots.

wrap up

i know i'm late in doing my 'thoughts on 2009/welcome 2010' post but here it is anyway. sorry for the delay.. bangkok from the 27th-30th was too tiring i had to rest on the 31st.

2009 was great! well.. for one, i managed to cross out most things on my goal-setting card. most of the year are memories of australia.. and that's something i have my daddys to thank for. it's really hard being away from home all these months but i'm really thankful for my besties who are just like family to me.

best friend no. 1

doh, not my friend for the longest time but he's my life saver in aussie. definitely the most unlikely person i'd imagine to be my bestie but yea.. i know i seem awfully violent but that's how i show my love. i promise to be better though!

best friend no. 2

jerry baby! just a really awesome guy with the nicest personality. thanks for letting a shuai-ge sit beside me on the flight back.

of course there's my lovelies back in singapore.. who constantly send their love over, without which i would have died. thanks for remembering me even while i was away. you girls really need to know how important you are to me.. thanks for the past 5 years. i know i can always count on you 3 to be there for me.

also ben.. my one and only bbf. for endless hours of entertainment.. my most up-to-date link with things going on back home. (:

and andy dearest, for always keeping me company on msn.. showing me videos on youtube and giving me updates about what's going on in church. it's not that i don't get your point.. i do. you just don't like it when i disagree with you and then you'll say i don't get it. still, it's always nice to hear from my happy rocker.

last but definitely not the least.. pow. 2009 isn't 2009 without you. the past 11 months knowing you has been an adventure and the last 6 months loving you has been a fairytale. i really don't know what you see in me but i'm very grateful that you chose to love me.. because i'd never in my life think i could actually find a guy as perfect (in my opinion) as you. thank you for seeing the best in me and loving me so unconditionally. kiss kiss.

happy 2010 peeps! (:

lost generation

and so it was

this christmas was real quick. in fact, the whole year was. not awesomefied but still good.. probably because i'm too caught up in my preparations for australia. did gift exchange with my ya-yas, attended christmas service with daddy and mummy, greeting cards and presents from dajie and beverley in the mail, got kristine's call from down under, milk's christmas party... it's good enough.

the year is coming to a close and i looked back upon my 2008. other than it being the year of my 21st, dajie getting married and completing my first marathon.. everything else seems to be a blur. not that it bothers me, it's better in fact. now i know why they say some things are meant to happen. good or bad.. it depends on your own perspective i guess. in 2008, it seems like i'm stuck in reverse.. hmm, more like repeat actually, and that kind of sucks. but i'm not blaming anyone because i know it's my fault. i... i don't know how to get out of it. "just because it is, doesn't mean it should be" oh, i just watched AUSTRALIA today.. quite enjoyed it. it was a really long show.. long but nice show. it always seemed weird to watch movies alone.. but i think i want to learn to watch movies by myself.

no pictures for today's post.. because i realised i always bombard my entries with them.

giver of life

i've always known that i'll want to donate my organs when i die eventually. but it was only when i saw an episode of Oprah that it sort of really got to me. it was the story of jason ray and how his organs saved 3 people's lives. while he was alive, he signed up to be an organ donor and told his parents about it. the response wasn't very encouraging of course. when the time came that the poor kid passed away due to an accident, his parents did eventually agree to it, remembering how adamant their son had been. it's a very inspiring story.. and people really ought to be more aware about such things. i hope one day oprah will talk to some marine biologist or animal activist to let people know what's happening to sharks and swallows. (ok, i'm refering to shark's fin and bird's nest). that'll be wicked la. although highly unlikely because americans don't really consume them. i like the Oprah show, it never fails to enlighten me.

perspectives

God gave us free will and choice so it's for us to decide what we like or don't like. people see things differently, sometimes it's so different i don't even know if it's the same thing we're looking at. of the numerous differences in opinion, each individual story may come in mutiple versions.. depending on the audience i guess. i've had quite a number of new perspectives this week. some were "wow".. but there was those that made me went " what the heck?!" man, i really hate this game.

my perspective: gossip girl is new favourite. xoxo.

food ban

over the years, i have come to accumulate stuff on my 'food ban' list. these things which i have instructed myself never to partake of are on the list due to one reason or another.

kristy's food BAN:

1. durian

2. shark's fin

3. bird's nest

4. coke

durians are obvious. those who know me would by now figure how much i detest them. chance was given but it disappointed.

shark's fin and bird's nest ended up on the list because of one lady, miss jessica tan. she was a trainee teacher who taught me in primary 3 and i consider her one of the most brilliant woman i know. she would probably never know what an impact she's made on my life. during lesson one day, she shared with us why she doesn't eat shark's fin and bird's nest. her words came out so strongly, i almost felt angry at myself for being so ignorant. people catch sharks, chop off their fins and throw them back into the sea to die. not to mention harvesting swallow's saliva, out of which they build their nests. so the swallows will keep spitting to build new homes for their babies until a point whereby they spit blood. she only told us a simple story but that was enough to make me think.

coke the most recent addition. all i can say is 'thanks miss ho'. hockey was quite a big part of me in jc. sort of the thing that made me feel 'pioneer' and want to work hard to complete A's and graduate. miss ho is one inspirational coach.. the sort who will make you want to give it all you can during training and games. she helped me see my potential and worked with it.. i wouldn't think i could have understood so much if it weren't for her.. she definitely made me a better team player and also a better person. oh dear.. i do realise i'm getting carried away. pardon me on that. well, like i was saying.. coke ended up on the list because miss ho said so. it was during the period before championships that training was total madness. miss ho gave us a list of things that we weren't allowed to eat until season was over.. stuff like gassy drinks or those that contains lots of caffeine, fried food.. i can't remember now, but basically our rights to enjoy glorious food was forfeited. still all in all, it was worth it.

super sized

as most of you know, i'm currently doing a health and fitness module. there's one lecture where we watch 'super size me'.. well, watched portions of it due to the lack of time. it aired on arts central on sunday and i re-watched it. man, the americans are seriously out of hand. oh, they already had mcgriddles during the time of filming.. which was in 2003.

it's absurd what fast-foods, or in this case mcdonald's, can do to you and morgan spurlock proved it. he's the man behind the documentary film. you should see it for yourself if you haven't already watched it. the experiment does seem very unfair and outrageously unrealistic but it's still quite an insight. a comment made in the movie really struck me.. why is it that we can tell a smoker off so easily but when we see an obese person, we don't think their severe weight problem is an issue. we holler at a smoker, "don't you know smoking is bad for you?!" and it seems so oblivious. however, to a grossly fat person, you don't see people telling them, "stop eating, you could kill yourself". everything has it's time i suppose.

18 days to the big A's.

yesterday was the official day that we ended our school term. farewell assembly was alright.. the counsellors did put in effort. ms lee was part of a dance item with some other teachers.. and she dedicated it to us, S29. =) awfully sweet of her.. we shrieked upon hearing her mentioning "and to my S29". those around thought we were mad. most people probably forgot S29.. well, the jc1s obviously wouldn't know we existed.

being in S05 was bittersweet. maybe because S29 was such a unique class.. coming to S05 made it a little disappointing at first. luckily we(suling, hadh and i) were not alone.. joining us was kenneth and zhiwei. funny though.. we only starting talking to them when the year was ending. actually for zhiwei.. i've only started speaking to him like 2 weeks ago. haha! the girls in S05 are real angels.. what i'm trying to say is that they're all very kind and friendly people, oh, except just this one. i'll miss this class still.. next thing to look forward to now is PROM. =)

had a very 'weird' conversation with benedict today.. he was being encouraging for once. there's not so much suaning or trying to outtalk me at every sentence. thanks dude..

for those who have the time.. go check out sheila on 7. they're a band from indonesia.. and they're good! great range and all.. i'll be playing their songs more frequently now on my blog.. so enjoy.

05S05

new class for 2006. suling, hadh and i are together.. thank goodness! and there's kenneth and zhiwei who are j2 retainees. hadh was suppose to be in S04.. but we appealed.. and it was approved. yayness. the class is ok...... sigh, who am i kidding?! it's a super extreme mugger class.. whose average grades for promos last year were Cs and Ds. save me! S05 is a very obedient bunch.. not as happening as S29, but maybe it's good.. since i'm in j2 now. time to settle down and get serious about work. but for just a minute.. imagine a year spent with muggers, getting stressed beyond belief over upcoming tutorials and assignments, evening staying back in college for consultations. not to mention with hardly any friends in school, who's going to entertain me when i'm bored.. listen to me tell my boring, senseless stories and laugh..(of course by this time.. suling, mich and hadh would be bored to death by my presence already). tsk.. how disappointing, and i still thought j2 was going to be fun and totally happening. sigh. i'm still hoping for the best though.. there's certainly hope with me, suling and hadh around.

the girls in class are nice.. except one thing, there's 2 cliques among the girls.. the english-speaking and cheena group. it's very distinct.. but i won't comment much on them here.. will just give myself some more time to adapt to them. as for the guys.. they seem harmless enough, kind of boring actually. lol.. so many quiet people in this class.. even though they can get very noisy in between lessons, but they are always talking among their own groups of friends. it's a totally differnet culture from S29.

well, forgot to mention that joel's in pj for 1st 3 months. he can entertain me.. =) my dear kristine too!! hoho..

it's only the second day of school and i can't stand it already. how i wish i can get out of there like now! i'm really looking forward to NUS.. but maybe i should start planning for my common test revision first.