happy easter 2013

the long weekend is here! and i really mean long considering study break starts after today. sadly, it will be no holiday for me. 2 assignments and a presentation awaits me once the break is over.

i had planned to 'celebrate' this easter by attending the easter service at south city church but things didn't go according to plan because of.. let's just call it 'unforeseen circumstances'. so to make myself feel less guilty, i watched chc's easter drama online. even after 12 years, i still enjoy watching the drama every single time(i will admit not so much the message though). still, easter reminds me of how much Jesus really loves and that i will always be thankful for. 

so to my beloved Jesus, thank You for laying down your life for mine, for showing me that i matter and for helping me believe that i deserved to be loved. have a great easter weekend everyone! 

happy easter

ikea meatballs.. (:

things are much easier now that i've got a microwave at home. pop the frozen meatballs in and they'll be ready in 3 minutes. yay. the sauce needs some cooking though. the past week was alright. mostly mugging for my ex-phys (exercise physiology) mid semester exam and er.. mahjong. the paper was surprising easy.. *grin*. now i'm just left with econs and biomechanics and neuroanatomy after the easter break. hmmm.. now that i've mentioned, it's alot to cover in one week. (!!!)

hongwei's parents are here for the week..

i love it when we have visitors. (:

my easter present to myself. HAH!

hope everyone is having a wonderful easter back home. i miss easter drama and all the busyness during this season. this easter wasn't the best i had.. but still i'm as thankful for the work He's done on the cross. it's because of this that i gave up the fight and surrendered 8 years ago.

hallelujah

was going to share a whole lot about asia conference, or at least i thought i was going to, then i received news on saturday afternoon. i didn't think it'll be this hard going through it and it just hurts alot. i don't know what to do but i do know that i don't want others to see my tears. thanks for bringing ahgong back home with You and for everything else. i just need to be quiet... for a while.

(((: (part 2)

"Dear Kristy

Your application has been approved and sent to the International Centre for processing. You will not be able to apply for your visa until you receive the offer letter from the International Centre, but there is no reason why you can't start to organise the other logistic matters as soon as you wish."


YIPPEEEE! thank You. and all who have believed together with me.

reminisce

busy busy weekend. and despite tomorrow being a public holiday, i still have to pop by milk media to rush work. well, i'm making an effort to go for the cg outing.. although i know i'll be dead tired. but i want to have my 'holiday'.. so i shall enjoy my trip to the zoo!

went for service today and yes, i sat next to jiayu. she's very shy.. but i think that was partially a result of tuckered out kristy. now she thinks i'm fierce.. but i promised to be on my best behaviour the next time i see her. anyway, the service was awesome. nothing beats service in jurong church. since my first year in church, i've started giving to the building fund. and although i don't get to go on stage to share about how many hundreds and thousands of dollars the Lord has blessed me back with.. He has done miracles for me every time, even before i gave. no exception this time round. pledging week is coming up. i'm ready.. at least i think i am. it's going to be rough but i have faith because God has proven Himself worthy.

my current playlist consists of alot of different music.. mamma mia, jay chou.. oh, raisa introduced "the call". and the latest addition is 'guns and roses' and 'sinatra'.


the call by regina spektor (from the chronicles of narnia: prince caspian soundtrack)

it started out as a feeling
which then grew into a hope
which then turned into a quiet thought
which then turned into a quiet word
and then that word grew louder and louder
till it was a battle cry

i'll come back
when you call me
no need to say goodbye

just because everything's changing
doesn't mean it's never been this way before
all you can do is try to know who your friends are
as you head off to the war
pick a star on the dark horizon
and follow the light

you'll come back
when it's over
no need to say good bye
you'll come back
when it's over
no need to say good bye

now we're back to the beginning
it's just a feeling and no one knows yet
but just because they can't feel it too
doesn't mean that you have to forget
let your memories grow stronger and stronger
till they're before your eyes

you'll come back
when they call you
no need to say good bye
you'll come back
when they call you
no need to say good bye


enough said. if you let me interpret the lyrics, i'd say it's a very encouraging song because there is really no need to say good bye.

thank You

pastor promised that this week's message will be 'triple-ly' awesome.. and it was. it reminded me of how God has indeed been so tremendously good to me. for the few that know, going to australia has been on my mind since i started my course. i've always thought about it, visualized it, believed it and confessed it (thanks to those who believed and confessed together with me).. not to mention praying and sowing. there were so many times when i wanted to give it up.. but thank God for faith, patience and friends who shared my dream. i'm now in the midst of preparation. if all goes well, i'll be flying off to aussie during the first week of February. *WOOT!*

i apologise for not being able to contain my excitement.. anyway, xenia called for a 'dress day', so my new dress(from our trip to city plaza) was the obvious choice.

n20 girls
rickson's 21st.

happy birthday to my dear also. it's finally the big 'TWO' zero.. yay!

cg had plans to hang out at timbre on saturday but the waiting time was insane due to the size of our crowd. so we proceeded to the cathay instead. no choice la.. hungry people are angry people. we did head back after dinner though. moxi and i intented to sleepover at xenia's.. part of the plan was to go timbre, so it was pretty inevitable that we went back. goodfellas were playing that night and i think they're qutie good. nice choice of songs.. oh, and the lead singer has one heck of a voice la. the drummer was entertaining too.. hee.

this is only a cover.. the erdinger was mine. ricky ordered ice lemon tea.



moxi & xenia (:

i know, so pretty right..
in the end, the sleepover wasn't really a sleepover. it was more like a movie marathon.. plus almost the whole cg(those who stayed till late) came over also. we reached xenia's place at around 3plus and i only managed to catch some shuteye at 6am. by the time i woke up, there was only me, rickson, jinlong and kelvin left. xenia made pancakes.. yay! then we slacked and watched some cheesy taiwan drama because of the rain. we did finally go out..

my craving for apple strudel on a restless sunday.. and i got it.
everything was well until i came back to office on monday. so much work for me.. especially today. arghh.. "i quit!!". not literally la.. i love my job, my bosses are cool.

i've been hunting for batgirl the past week but she's extinct already. ): went to try my luck at vivo's topshop on wednesday but to my MAJOR disappointment, they don't have her too. )): then my only other 'want' wasn't available in size 6. ))): well, mamma mia cheered me up slightly. (:

(i'm addicted to the soundtrack now)

it's still a good week so far. i find myself mostly in a pensive mood.. which is rather comforting to know. just glad that all the drama is over. thanks!

confus-ed/ing

watched bad habits.. finally. movie wise.. it's good, on to other stuff.. it's been quite unexpected. i really don't know, now i'm slightly confused. or rather, i just can't decide. this is no fun. i shall give it serious thought, at least try to. hate to think it'll screw up. but yea, the choice is mine. God.. help me decide. i can take no for an answer(even though that sucks). help me please!

random

dajie owns 2 such diaries. i always just thought it's a nice little book.. until now. was browsing through their website and now there's tons of stuff that i can't wait to get my hands on.

first on my list..

fly my dream

i'm one step closer to my dream. my prayers are not in vain. many thanks to my gracious Lord for giving me insights. continue to help me and my weaknesses.. i really need to do more. thanks also to one who has encouraged and tolerated.. you're much appreciated.

this was an abandoned project BUT now i'm going to try and revive it.

i was faced with the worst news that could ever possibly hit me. it's probably my only regret in life. reality can suck.. and it hurts. now i just have to look pass all that and move on. on the more positive side, i'm finally going to let go after so long.

arise and build. believe God can work His miracles again and again.

i believe!

going through the motion.. bring in a little bit of passion. but for me, passion i do not lack.. it's more of discipline. it seems i've became best friends with procrastination even when i detest it so much. someone told me i'm lazy. well, i came to realise it's becoming a fact as i grow older. I WANT TO DENY THAT!! God.. You know my struggles and weaknesses. i know it's coming.. please help me.

words brought about great conviction.
what's one to do without passion and fire?
how's one to live without hunger and thirst?


"every little thing is gonna be alright."

watched lakehouse again on vcd.. twice in fact. the plot is different, yet simplistic. the story is delusional, yet so real at the same time.

"lost in a beautiful fantasy where time stood still".. i think this is where i'm stuck at. you'd wish for it to end because you know it's not going to be like this in reality.. and it'll hurt. still a part of you will long for it to last.. and hope that this dream may actually come true.

there's a track in this movie that i particular like.. 'this never happened before' by paul mccartney.

i'm very sure, this never happened to me before
i met you and now i'm sure
this never happened before

now i see, this is the way it's supposed to be
i met you and now i see
this is the way it should be

this is the way it should be, for lovers
they shouldn't go it alone
it's not so good when you're on your own

so come to me, now we can be what we want to be
i love you and now i see
this is the way it should be
this is the way it should be

this is the way it should be, for lovers
they shouldn't go it alone
it's not so good when you're on your own

i'm very sure, this never happened to me before
i met you and now i'm sure
this never happened before


it has got me wondering where exactly is God in all this? He may not have spoken but i believe my miracle is already on it's way. well, even if it's hard to believe.. one must develope faith. i've done all i can.. so the rest is up to Him.

God.. i believe(really!), but help my unbelief.

had a wonderful cg meeting today. this week wasn't all that smooth. in fact i've been troubled by some.. well, i wouldn't say problems.. but they sure weren't very motivating thoughts. it's got to do with the relationship i have with my cg. the issue is not with them.. it's just me. very frankly.. i actually didn't want to go for cg today. ok..hang on, it's coming out all wrong. argh. it's not that i don't want to attend cg.. it's more like i wasn't exactly anticipating the fellowship. gosh.. it's sounds really bad as i'm typing all this. BUT.. like i mentioned earlier.. i had a WONDERFUL cg meeting. presence of God came really strongly. He spoke to me.. regarding certain doubts i had. it's all pretty much cleared up now. indeed, God is committed to love us forever. isn't He just so amazing?!

=).. amen.

i've been a christian for some time now.. and i've faithfully given my tithe every month since the first time jo explained to me what it meant. of course, there was offering and building funds on top of that. heard testimonies of how people will receive checks in their mail.. or people just giving them cash for no rhyme or reason. you could say i was 'entertained' by these stories because i seriously didn't think that could happen to me.. at least not in the context of singapore. but recently, i'm beginning to have a different revelation about giving. things are happening.. and so i want to testify of God's blessings in my life.

when i first started giving.. i wasn't really giving in faith. the amounts were generally "affordable", if i could say so. but since 2 years ago.. i felt constantly challenged by God to give a larger amount. the first time the prompting came.. no doubt i was weary, but i still gave. i remember it was pastor tan collecting the offering that weekend.. and as he was praying for the offering, God encouraged me and told me that i did well for being obedient to Him. after this incident, God spoke to me more frequently about giving, and each time it was a more substancial amount.. but remembering what God said to me, i will just give.

small blessings started coming in.. that built my faith. during one service this year, God suddenly reminded me.. about what the bible says regarding sowing. they that sow in tears shall reap in joy - Psa126:5. sure.. there were times when i struggled to give, because of lack. some would know this as i'm a hopelessly compulsive buyer. but as i look back and counted the blessings.. i realised God has blessed me more than i gave. (my most recent blessing was a ipod video.. this is truly a miracle. if you want to know, i can tell you more) it was then i truly understood what it means by "you can never outgive God". indeed, my God is a good god.. and He is worthy to be praised!! AMEN. =))

secrets and lies.. seen and heard so much. i have them too.. that's the truth. recently i shared an extremely presonal part of my life to someone. it's a secret that i thought would never be exposed to this world.. but it was the leading of the Holy Spirit that got me to share about it. it feels good to share.. but i'm also feeling very vulnerable. i hate things that contradict.. it confuses me.

secrets and lies hurt. i guess i've upset many, and i've been crushed umpteen times too. sometimes a 'sorry' just isn't enough. maybe it's just me.. apparently, i bear grudges too easily. well, tell me if i do.. but i really can't tolerate someone betraying my trust. controlling my emotions is not something i do well.. that's obviously not always good.

dear God, come and help me!! sometimes the pain is just overwhelming. i just want to lift this burden up into Your hands.

france beat brazil.. that's worth celebrating. what a time of mourning it must be for the fans of brazil.. =) zidane is my hero.. but i'm hoping germany will win the worldcup.. france can be the runner-up.

the week didn't start well. not for me particularly.. but it affected me because she was my good friend. it got me a little worried.. rather frustrated and extremely distracted. matters have yet to be settled.. so i'll just have to give her the benefit of doubt. wait till friday and see what she says.

arts central gave me a small revelation.. i never knew spiderman was spelt 'spider-man'. the hyphen is compulsory.. but many people tend to overlook it. kind of sympatise the guy on the show.. poor man seemed to be on a mission to educate the world about the correct spelling of the marvel comic character. tough job he has chosen to undertake... i salute him.

pastor tan shared the Word today. i can't explain how awesome the service was.. i mean, it was just super overwhelming. presence of God hasn't came upon me so strongly for the longest time. the Holy Spirit ministered to me.. really glad He came to set me free. thank God for wendy and fang. fabian bought me hillsong kids album. thank you. =)

Till I See You by Hillsong United

the greatest love that anyone could ever know
that overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
and till i see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
i trust in you

with all i am i'l live to see Your kingdom come
and in my heart i pray You'd let Your will be done
and till i see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
i trust in you

i will live to love You
i will live to bring You praise
i will live a child in awe of You

You are a voice that called the universe to be
You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me
and till i see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
i trust in you

You alone are God of all
You alone are worthy Lord
and with all i am my soul will bless Your name



thanks to jeffrey and ming ee for introducing me to such a beautiful song.

someone's complaining that i don't update my blog.. really sorry about that, just don't have the time. season has kicked off.. and i'm having difficulties catching up with my work. wish all this is over soon.

pj hockey girls played against sajc on thursday. we lost 1-0. the team was quite upset, because we could have played much better. personally, it was an especially disapponting match for me. it's not that i made any major boo-boos, but i underperformed... BIG TIME! =(

apparently, i(right mid-field) wasn't communicating enough with jocelyn(the centre mid-field).. hence there weren't enough chances for us to play along the right side because we couldn't link up our passes. even if the ball did manage to come to our side.. my passes were like trash(one even went straight to the opponent), if not i wasn't able to stop the ball properly etc. it was really horrible!

ohh... during the 1st half, my retarded skirt gave me so much problems lah. urghh.. it's quite hard to explain here but try to bear with me. well, our skirts are seriously the ugliest and most useless part of our uniform. for starters, it's not even a proper skirt, it's just a piece of cloth we wrap around our waist. it's held by a strap of valcro and a buckle thingy. unfortunately for us.. the size was wrong and it was too small, so for most of us.. the skirt is too tight(thus also too short). blah blah blah.. i got distracted by my stupid skirt because the buckle thingy came off like 15 minutes into the game.. (thanks man!) sigh... our jersey this year is super hideous! we look more like cheerleaders than hockey players.

when playing defense during the 1st half, everyone kept telling me to mark my player in the D area.. (ok, this one was partly my fault) i WAS marking my player.. but i kept some distance between us. it slipped my mind that we were suppose to do tight-marking in the top D.. so everybody was screaming at me to "MARK YOUR MAN!!". faz(our goalie), ain(right back), ms ho(coach) from the sideline and even tiff(my senior) who was standing with the spectators.. it was as though they planned it all, each of them took turns to tell me the same thing. i got really frustrated because i didn't understand what's wrong lah.. sigh.

i think i really performed below ms ho's expectations. think she wanted alot more from me. during stretching, she kept looking at me even though she was talking to the whole team. it wasn't just eye contact can.. she literally stood in front of me, stared into my eyes, telling it in my face when the team was standing in a circle. gosh...! she was saying something about "you've got to give it your all today" when she stood in front of me.. imagine how awkward is that can! everyone was looking. but that's not the worst yet... after that, ms ho did it again. but the 2nd time wasn't that obvious, she just stood near me and said "kristy, now's your time to shine".. she had the kind of sinister smile.. so i sort of just smiled back at her.. but in my heart i was like "WHAT CRAP!!" goodness.. does she know how pressurizing that sounds? well, back to the game. so in the end, she took me out after about 15 minutes into the second half and i didn't get to play the rest of it. =((

monday's our game against acjc.. God please help us beat them! i'm trying to visualise the final score of 3-0!! ahhhhh..... i didn't know tournament would be so hard!!! oh.. the game on monday is 3pm at delta sports complex.. if you support pj, please do come! if not.. don't let me catch you cheering for acjc when i'm playing. thanks...

busy busy busy.

hockey camp, css finals, common test results... not to mention that lessons are as per-normal. sigh.. really very, very tired.. and in every aspect possible. things are becoming harder to cope with. miss my old friends.. don't have the time. too many changes, i can hardly adapt. i'm not even sure it's because i'm slow or whether it's due to my unwillingness. God does provide.. and i'm really thankful i have Him no matter what, but sometimes i get distracted by my emotions and thoughts.. and it's seriously starting to make me frustrated!

sigh... was intending to blog about the hockey camp and all. but i guess it's not happening.. waahaha. got so many photos i wanted to load.. well, another time perhaps. ohh.. i'm extremely pleased that zhiyang is the champion campus superstar!!! yayy... quite upset dean wasn't the female winner though, but anyhow.. zhiyang won!! =)

mmm.. i'm bored already, shall go do my integration questions instead of stoning in front of the computer screen. math could have been one great subject to study if there wasn't integration!!

i'm a christian, ask me why.

been doing some reflecting.. realised how my life has changed since i knew Jesus. my story isn't one of those drama-mama kind but it's defintely make an impact. there's been a change in my attitude, my perspective towards life. now i have a purpose, though i'm still in the midst of discovering what it is.

God's love made me love myself and others more. if you like the kristy you see now.. be thankful, i ain't so nice in the past. if you already don't, wel.. God bless you. of course i still had friends.. the difference is that i began to appreciate people more. God has brought special people into my life.. in these 18 years, He has blessed me with wonderful friends. people who i can count on. it's a miracle that someone as bad-tempered and domineering as me can still find company.. it really must be God.

God has been such a blessing in my life.. i want to share about Him to everyone i know. Holy Spirit, i pray You'll empower me to be a testimony for Jesus.