candle light service.. first time in chc. it was soooooooo beautiful! well, i mean the scene of every single person holding a lighted candle with all the lights off. was really meaningful.. seeing all the flames flickering in the darkness. as the lights were being passed from candle to candle, it was an extremely touching sight. it's like each light represents a life. sometimes our passion may be blown up by disappointments and failures.. but there's always someone to rekindle that flame, to keep your passion burning. God has given me wonderful friends to keep me going.. friends that are godly, encouraging.. cg members, though they keep changing.. all of them(past and present) are really God's gift to me. but of course thank God for friends in school too.. they're a lovely bunch.

when only pastor kong's candle was lit, the whole hall was pretty dark.. but when all of our candles were lit, it was so bright it's as though they didn't switch off the lights in the first place. erm.. ok, let's understand.. hall 8 at singapore expo is kind of huge.. and the fact that there arn't many lights in place, even when the lights are on.. it's still quite dim. well, you get the idea.. =)

today hasn't been all that great. had a really tough time during ministry. i'm down with blocked nose and a real bad throat. with my voice so deep and sexy, it's not so easy to control 36 kids. made a TERRIBLE, totally HORRENDOUS boo-boo today. i let an uber mischievious boy go home by himself during the return trip.. bad move kristy. turns out he didn't go home.. and his mum saw him playing at the playground when she came down 10 minutes later. she was furious!! sigh... maureen(his visitation leader) called me, in other words.. i got scolding. =(

well, i was also trying to get back to church to catch the chartered bus. in the end, with the downpour, distance and time factor.. i decide to just take a cab to expo. second bad move of the day.. sigh. $19.30.. OH MAN!! i seriously should have just taken the bus. =((

haven't felt this kind of frustration in such a long time.. maybe because i've been too slack. but it's still horrible.. i felt so lousy that i was controlling my tears on the cab. sigh... so many things i want to say.. but it'll be too much. will probably add up to all the GP essays i've written so far combined together, and i'm tired too. well, thank God for shelin.. she was there to listen. =)