it's been a rather emotional week. i'm not refering to major, sudden outbursts.. just having alot of mixed feelings lately. goodness knows why. sometimes i just feel sad out of the blue.. usually happens when i'm stoning.. or waiting. will have flashbacks occasionally, and these memories make me sad. not that they are sad memories, some are nice ones.. but they remind me of certain things that are no longer the way it was, hence the sadness. a few times it was anger.. realised i've been quite moody these past days. easily frustrated.. and thus leading to indifference when that happens. urgh, but i can't help it. i don't like it at all.. hate to be unhappy! worst thing is.. this feeling has compounded within the week.

a thought suddenly crossed my mind.. could i be suffering from depression? haha.. hmm, think not. but i hope i get out of this state i'm in now. maybe it's because i'm turning into a mugger.. and i mean i true-blue mugger! dajie made a new rule in the house.. raisa and i have to study at least 3 hrs per day before we can lay our hands on the computer. all of a sudden i have to cut away about 60% of my entertainment cum social life.. seems like a reason to feel upset. however, i like to study.. so i guess it's not so valid. hmm... oh! maybe i know the cause afterall, started because of an incident during prom. but i shan't talk about it here.

i want school to start like now!!! to get my mind off things. it would be more comforting if i were to be starting a new semester in NUS.. but i guess being a j2 in pj will have to do for now.